attitude.???
suddenly think of it, why? maybe this fews day my attitude was change or become worst.. can't be deny that, my attitude already change toward everything. I told myself I don't know why will become like this, hmm... is that I am hide out or self-deceptive? after think of this question fews day, I found that, yes I knew the answer.. last fews week I keep cheating myself, I not dare to face the fact, I hide myself deeply, I scared people found me. But I'm so suffer, really.. I done some thing that makes lots of my friends feels disappointed on me, some even angry me and don't wanna bother me anymore. Because I'm losing all the way at that time, so I din't care what people and how to think on me, I just hope the suffer life can gone but I don't know what to do.. I do regret on this, I also know that apologize is too late and useless, but I still have to say: sorry, Carmen, Jermain, Yeah, Kah mun, Esther and Jence. I will back to normal and prove it with my action. I really appreciate that what my friends done for me, I will remember and keep all the advise in my mind. sometime I really can't deny that, I'm stupid all the way. Thanks again for forgiving me.
yes, Alan.. suddenly recall back what you said to me, you said I'm not independent enough to face everything, always wanna rely on other, not mature enough to decide or settle problem. As a 19years old gal, maybe I'm still not mature, independent enough compare with other, but that is me for now. I admit that I am, thanks of telling and remind me. I knew I'am those person who scared be alone, even walking on the road alone I also will feels uncomfortable. I also knew that, I have to learn more independent in my life. maybe you will think that it is hard for me, as every time you said to me, I am "3 minute people". But responsibility, I will be independent than before. I will prove to myself.
my family.. my sister and brother keep asking me when is your holidays and when you back home, already nearly 2 months I din't back my home. I do miss my home, family. But I can't do that. happened lots of thing, every time the first thing come out in my mind is I want back home, in my home, I no need to think much, worry or bother. My mom ask me after final just back, because she is worrying me when I on the way drive back to home. lots of accident happened, make my parents more worry me here. But I will becareful all the way, please don't worry me, I will feels self-condemned. I always wanna attend in good fettle in-front of your, because I don't hope both of you worry on me, but whatever I do, you still the same, I always is the little girl in your mind. anyway, thats call love, thank of loving me, I knew that and I will always love you all
ok, back to myself. I scared be alone, but at the end I'm still alone. This is my life, I need go through. Still remember someone told me, everyone of us come into this world by alone (expect those twin-born), we also will die and leave this world by alone, that is origin, or ought to.. don't scared be alone, angel always beside us. yes, angel ar angel.. I hope everyone love happily, live happily..
before I back to my assignment, I have another thing wanna to share...
that is ATTITUDE.. yea, this word again. attitude is important for everyone toward everything. I have a game here, lets count from A to Z each letter have its number from 1 to 26.
for the word of attitude, A=1, T=20, I=9, U=21, D=4, E=5. how many total marks there??
everyone have your answer?? yes, it is 100. so Attitude = 100% see, it is hundred percent important for us. yea, keep it up everyone..
