scared can't be recover back and keep on ate medicine. finally I lost my voice and my sick become more serious and serious. I not dare to tell my parent about this, don't want they worry me. but I feels so hard. this fews days I can't fall in sleep as normal, cold and asthma make me feels hard to breath when I'm sleeping, don't know what can do, don't know can get help from who, just keep crying until I falls in sleep. I so hate on it. I hate sick. It make me can't concentrate to do thing. I not dare to call my friend when there were midnight already, I scared disturb them. I felt that I really so useless. Sometime I really admire my friends that who around me, all of them are so blessedness. all of them are belonging with their loves one. Even some unhappy thing happened at outside or problem they met when they back home, they still have a pair of ear listening to them, a pair of hand to hug them, console them, a loving heard to care them and whatever. at least they are not alone.
maybe because of sick, this fews day I keep on nightmare. I was so scared when I awake from nightmare at midnight. but I still have to be tough to face it and force myself not to think about it. argh!!! am I going to become crazy??? stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking....
Final is coming, I have to start my revision. but everything happened on me is just like baffling me. I can't complete what I had planed on time. worry but helpless...
I want leave from here! I really exhausted.. T_T
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